have i failed them all? my kids i mean. its hard to split up my time and attention. how do mega families do it?
last night i just had a feeling. a feeling i needed to be up at UNH with Kristin. a book she needs had been mailed here, instead of there, by Amazon.com and i needed to get it to her. i felt like i needed to get there RIGHT NOW. i didnt tell her we were coming, i wanted to surprise her. we had to wait a bit for her, she was shopping with some friends, so we took a walk and got an ice cream cone on campus while we waited. it was a beautiful night! we enjoyed the time alone. shes fine, but needed a visit. we all talked for a couple hours. on the way up there i was talking to Yogi about how guilty i feel about how little time i spend with my oldest child. i would bet that lots of Moms drive the hour to surprise their kids at college, and bring them trinkets and baked goods, all the time. i think this my first surprise pop-in visit. i wish it was easier for me to just jump in the truck and go up to take her to dinner, or have her take me to dinner(for free!) at the dining hall. i feel like i should be making it much more of a planned thing. my priorities get mixed up sometimes. jackson, and his issues, take a lot of my time and the 2 youngest , well.. ya know. just keeping up with laundry is tough. BUT i really want to spend time with Kristin NOW, before she has no time for her old mom! she leaves for 4 months, to study abroad in Costa Rica, on Jan. 10th. she'll be gone for 17 weeks. kendyl will really miss her. we all will. anyway, i guess im just thinking out loud today.
we leave for MI tomorrow morning, i will try to blog while i'm gone. i hope its fun. i feel very burnt out and need a few days away. wish me luck!