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Thursday, March 25, 2010

forgot to tell y'all

i know, i know. Y'all?? but i live with a Texan. i slip.
anyway, I forgot to tell you that kendyl plays soccer now! shes the tiniest kid on the team, i think that'll be a typical thing in her life, shes pretty short. she has her 4th soccer day on saturday, its an 8 week thing. she loves it!

no, really! you'll be able to EAT off the floors now!

well, things may not go that swimmingly, but... we're gonna give it a try. the kids are on board, we shall see. i already feel a bit less pressure on me. now i can just point to the board. aaahhhhh.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010


a friend gave us a bigger trampoline. SO FUN! of course the kids now jump from one to the other. scary!

see? i dont look much different!



my Jenny

My Ken Ken


ken, shawn & lexi

Brody, kissing kendyl goodbye, an hour before his mom called to tell me his strep throat test came back positive. mmmhhmm.

thats how he rolls

so cute!

kendyl's 2 bestest friends. lexi & brody. they are only 4 weeks apart! she weigh 35 lbs-he weighs 55 LOL
uncle tim brought the stupid donuts@@ i made all the kids eat them right away.

Yogi's reaction to the census lololol

the beautiful jack dempsey at my chiropractors office. i LOVE him.

*the census took me 45 minutes to fill out. time for an intervention! ROFLMAO!
* its sad when something as simple as a new .. ok...clean shower curtain liner impresses me so much. BLISS.
* Doug's new job at the diner? FIRED for texting. siigghhhhhhh. he has a new job at Friendly's, but he's not sure when he starts.
* Doug's car finally passed inspection yesterday. Doug's Birthday is in DECEMBER, so do the math. its been a long, frustrating 12 weeks and we've handed him a total of about $600 to get it to pass. Our tax return is slipping away, just like I knew it would.
* Yogi bought a Mac Book Air from my friend. i cant figure out the whole Macintosh way of life, but hes enjoying it. more money-gone. but its a business computer so it'll pay for itself, and we got a good deal on it.
* Kristin hadnt e mailed in a few days, i knew something was up. she finally had to fess up and tell me she JUMPED OFF A CLIFF, into a waterfall and "landed wrong". shes being evasive, holding back details and is generally scaring the crap out of me. shes used words like "paralyzed at first" , "writhing in pain" and "Im mobile now" (what were you before???) "my host family is nursing me back to health". i see from pics on Koob Face that she did take a trip this past weekend, and atleast wore the helmet required for doing the zipline, but im not sure if she participated or not. Her boyfriend (kenny-more K's)is on a flight to see her as we speak, and he has been instructed to text me IMMEDIATELY upon looking her over. i want to know she's truly ok. Their EMT friend Shaun is with him, and he will be giving her a full assessment, he says lol. i feel better now, but the fact that neither Kenny or Shaun even knew of this accident terrifies me. what is she hiding???? I leave to go see her on the 29th. i still need a swim suit that fits! i think i need a 13/14 WITH A SKIRT LOL
* The Princess And The Frog was a dissappointment. I wanted more.
* It's cold and pouring today. I took the little ones to Payless Shoe store for Shawn, he outgrew all his size 8's! and then out for Happy Meals. Now we are watching Red Box movies up in my bedroom on the nice TV i caved and bought last month-not sure if i mentioned it. i needed a place to be alone so i bought it, even though we said we'd never have TV in our bedroom. things change! We are hiding from the noise downstairs.
* Daddy works too much. We miss him. Business wont die down until July. Last night he was in his office corner of the basement, next to the dryer, lets keep it real LOL- until 11pm, after working all day out there. cant complain, but i will!
* Shawn just crashed out. ahhhhh. a break.
* im down about 46 lbs now. Im on lower body rest today, but may do something else.
* i need clothes SO BAD!!!!! im down to ONE pair of pants and theyre too short. i look stupid in them. gotta hit some thrift stores before i go south.

shoot i better go, movie is over. laundry is calling!

Monday, March 22, 2010

the only place i can say these things

this week they are doing this big fund raising event at the YMCA i run at. one of those "break so & so out of jail" fund raisers. they clamour to get to you as you enter, remind you to pledge on your way out.. all the cardio equipment and lockers are adorned with these cutesy little messages written on little, red, cut out hearts-messages like, "did you know that if everyone donated yadda yadda amount, we could teach a child to swim/a child could attend camp/we could give a needy family a week of free daycare etc etc etc...
the whole thing annoys me. during my run this afternoon i really tried to sort out my feelings about the pushy fund raising and put a positive spin on it.. cuz it IS positive. It's just that my perspective is not where it should be or where it used to be or where the YMCA staff's hearts are. first of all, i pay $75 a month to run on a treadmill /tread climb/cycle 6-7 hours a week. so.....about 28-30 hours a month. that's $2.50 an hour. why should i "give" any more than that? secondly(and this is the "bigger picture") at this juncture in my personal life, I just don't feel all that sad that a kid may not get swimming lessons. I dont feel guilty that a kid may have to watch TV & bake cookies or plant flowers at grammy's house during school vacation week instead of attending a Y camp while mom goes to work. I dont lose sleep over the fact that a family in my town cant afford to attend the YMCA to swim or shoot hoops or lose weight. the money my husband and i are "giving" right now makes sure a child will get
ONE meal today.
ONE malaria shot.
ONE mosquito net to sleep under.
ONE tent to hide from the rain & hot sun.
ONE bottle of formula or water.
ONE item of clothing.
ONE diaper.
ONE bath.
ONE immunization
ONE dose of diarrhea prevention.
ONE chance at another day of life.
so, no. im not devastated by the fact that an American child may not go to camp or go to swimming lessons.
my perspective just isnt there. not today.

Monday, March 15, 2010

check it!

and this was while holding my heavy SLR camera with zoom lens! GO ME!!!!! i started out at 240, on December 1st. week 16 began today.

Friday, March 12, 2010


ive spent the last 2- 3 weeks in pain. my lower back and my neck, mostly. i am TERRIFIED of the chiropractor, but when I finally hit rock bottom, i relent and make an appointment. I hit rock bottom squared. i hate the cracking sounds. i brought my I Pod and tried not to throw up in my mouth. i was somewhat successful! 2 visits later I am seriously on the mend and looking forward.
when youre in pain, you get sloppy. you get desperate. throw me a life ring! I hoped the kids would really jump in and help. some days are better tan others, but im still doing a lot. Yesterday i was so delerious I announced to all the kids(7 of them were in the room) that i was willing to pay 40$ CASH to whoever emptied, scrubbed out, organized/purged leftovers and re filled the refridgerator on the main floor. NOT.ONE.TAKER.
Nobody. All these kids are so in need of money but not one of them was motivated enough to do the job. i went to the chiropractor shortly after making the announcement, I had big dreams of coming home to a dramatic "reveal", like on While You Were Out, but it didn't happen. The house needs to be vacuumed, buckets and buckets of folded(by yours truly) laundry need to be carried from one floor to another, there isnt one clean towel in the bathroom, i finally scrubbed the bathtub myself, Yogi raked leaves & debris from the storm but then had to go to work, nobody has cleaned up the piles, there is so much to do and i cant do it all right now, neither can he, can all wait. I know all these kids are typical, i know that if we want/need them to do something we need to ask, but i guess im just feeling overwhelmed tonight.
and, why is it that when i want to make plans, especially overnight plans, i run them by my husband and get his input, yet tonight all i got was " im going away next weekend" ???? a mere 7 days notice for a whole weekend away with his Primerica buddies? no input asked? i am PISSED WAY OFF. i'll get over it. then i'll go away for the weekend.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

i know.. i know....

i have a few(good) stalkers who are pissed WAY OFF that im not blogging. lemme explain!

i have SIX 19 year olds living here. SIX. long story, but they have nowhere else to go. im so damn busy. im only on here right now because im puking today. ya know, just for fun(the puking). ive got Doug back until september, jenny & konor until may, Corey lee is sleeping in my bay window or on the sectional most nights-lost his apartment along with Doug. then, doug & corey lee's girlfriends JUST WONT GO AWAY LOL, nah, i love them both. Doug is back with Kayleigh again(the prom pics girl) and corey and jessie are together for the moment. they are having a baby in August, so i hope they can work it out for real. jessie is so tiny and has this cute little Hollywood style baby bump. shes still so sick every day, i was the same way, so i feel very protective over her. she and corey are apartment/job hunting, it wont be long. Corey lee CLEANS. i dig him.
they all smoke, except for jessie. tim smokes too. I HATE IT. thats been the only issue. yah, they keep it outside, but right this minute the smoke is wafting in through the living room window i opened, this fever is making me hot and sweaty. HATE CIGS.

the N only works when it wants to on this keyboard. youre welcome!

so.. the 6 19 year olds, 14, 5 & 2.5. im half crazy. its like a frat house. the almost 21 year old returns in may.

we decided not to buy the new washer & dryer. the stuff we have will work for now, its not broken, just inefficient, so we want to save the money.

our yard is completely free of snow now, earliest we've seen the lawn in years. we ALWAYS have snow in march. ALL of March, most years. this is so weird, but welcomed. Its been warmish too.

Im looking forward to see Kristin on the 29th, but not thrilled about traveling or being in that kind of heat. im such a wuss and an un grateful bitch, pretty much. just keepin' it real.

I'm taking really good care of myself, still. week 15 began 2 days ago. i'm down 38 lbs, i gain a few, lose a few, gain one, lose 2, gain one, lose one...... been hovering at 200 for WEEKS ON END. gaining muscle, losing fat, getting PMS......yo yo ing. trying to ignore the scale. once i'm truly under 200, im hoping i wont be so tempted to look. my original goal was to see 199 for the first time since late 2006. im ALMOST THERE! aything else is gravy and heart healthy for me. i love running, climbing, cycling, the tread climber and the fitness ball workouts(the 8 lb). i run and/or cycle 6 days a week. im sad that the last 10lbs. has taken so very long to come off, and the current 5, even longer, but.. oh well. im NOT quitting! i have taken 2 outdoor runs so far, i hurt more afterwards, so im taking it very slow with that. the last thing i need is an injury or any excuses. Yogi & I drove around our area and clocked 5 different running routes(the pedometer i bought is SOOOO lame! cant count on it at all) so we have some different routes written down so if i dont show up when expected, he knows where to go looking. i may run outside tonight.

all the kids are well. kendyl LOVES her ew soccer team and school, shawn is talking up a storm, doug & Konor both found jobs, Jackson continues to amaze us with his new self. the one who has been kind, concerned, joyful, accountable, dependable, age appropriate, independent, funny, motivated and enjoying life. thismorning, as he walked out the door to the bus stop i said "love you!" he said "love you too, mom". i dont care if he meant it. i dont. he said it. I'll take it. he still teases Kendyl and hogs the shower, but in an age appropriate way. I adore him. hes loving this AAU basketball league and he is headed to the championship this weekend for the town rec. league too. he refuses to play baseball this year, just wants to concentrate o basketball, im sad about it, but im just gonna suck it up. his ball handling skills are INCREDIBLE, hes so fun to watch. last week, in a playoff game, his coach looked up at Yogi in the stands and said, "this is like You Tube stuff!" JOY.

Kris is still livin' it up in Costa Rica and knows it will be very hard to leave. sun, beach, fun host family, great friends, nice tan, great classes...... JOY. but she finds joy in everything. she claims shes gained some weight. SHE LIES LOL

Doug's state of mind is very positive right now, we are hopeful. he seems very very upbeat and positive. hes roofing with his daddy, which he loves, and working at a local, well established(not going anywhere)diner part time. with the snow melting so soon, Yogi is on his first roof as we speak. we had a huge wind storm and lost power, along with the entire town, 2 weeks ago. many a shingle blew away! work is pouring in. phone is rining. life is pretty good. I miss him though, we are hardly ever in the house at the same time anymore :(

we want to buy a car for some of the kids to share, mostly jenny & kristin, once she arrives home. we have $2500.00 and want an automatic, 4 door small-medium sized car, newer than an '01, that doesnt need a butt load of money put into it right away. think we can find one? more useful than the washer/dryer right now. cant do both, but did buy shawn alan a new carseat-his Britax Marathon is "expiring"(???)wish us luck with the car.

i better go. ive been sitting for hours. my stomach isnt churning anymore, so im gonna try some food...

sorry i've been so bad, but im really trying to be more active(when i'm not puking) and focus on my health. i have to... and i love it, im so addicted. i will try to update more often. but im just not addicted to blogging anymore.(sorry, Short Bus Mommy. i love you!)
oh- i really dont look ay different, to me, so i havent posted ay pictures..i look the same as i did at my dads retirement party, pretty much. if i start to change, i will post some!
hugs to all!