new clothes, new haircut, new bug bites

look at my new hand-me-downs! isn't this color great on me? mummy cut my hair too. i don't mind, but i really don't see the point either. the spikitos bit me in my pool thismorning! how rude! mum never puts bug spray on me, i guess she'll have to live with herself now. no bug spray, no sun block..... how did i end up with HER????

time flies...& letters from doug

how can it be 5 days since i posted? oh... 3 days. whatever LOL
the big news? doug is sending frequent letters home. the gas chamber "creeped him out" but he got through it ok. he speaks often of how much he loves and misses us, more than he ever realized or expected. he also wrote:
"at basic training they take everything away from you. i never realized how good i had it at home. the little things like, my own room, private showers, no limit to the amount of food eaten, or time limit to consume it, television, music, my truck, my amazing & crazy family, I miss you all so much!"

ummm...who just died and went to heaven? ME. lol
i think i just got my THANK YOU.
he says hes ok, hes got '3 hots & a cot' so its all good. i miss him alot, even more than i expected.
graduation is 8/28 9am. i am flying in late day on the 26th for family day(on the 27th) and flying home late the 28th or early the 29th if i have to. doug can stay with me until 8pm on the 28th so i figure i will stay an extra night. i better save my pennies huh? all the hotels near fort benning are in the GHETTO. i mean the GHE-TTO. i am scared LOL
ive got shawn from 12 nursings a day down to 5-6. not bad! hes also sleeping through the night most nights, sometimes getting up once. if he isnt weaned fully by the time i leave, he will be by the time i get home!
i still wish i wasnt going by myself, but maybe it will be good for me. maybe i need the break in the monotony. how do you spell monotony anyway?
what else? oh! party plans are under way for the 2 youngest. july 26th at noon. we dont like january, so we are having a party for both of them this month. they will turn 1 & 3 1/2. im sending invitations today. ken is so excited! shawn doesnt care LOL. its a mickey mouse party with a pinata. im a lousy party planner so it might be boring! stay tuned!
jackson started summer school yesterday and to him, its a party LOL
yogi is working alot, and is quiet when hes home. yesterday i told him(in a nice way) that i felt invisable. he doesnt ask about my day or ask if i have any plans, he only talks about his day and tells me of his plans. he thinks i dont have plans? he apologized. then he spent the entire evening at the kitchen table reading a book, while i watched the ball game alone. MEN! i guess hes just tired. he says he'll take me to a ballgame friday night. my favorite former red sock is the new batting coach for the nashua pride atlantic league team. i cant wait. i hope it doesnt fall through.
thats about it i guess! i wish i had more excitement to tell about! maybe soon. (wink)

july 4th pics

my sister and me, shes my goal weight and complains lol

sisters boyfriend, loves kids

not much to tell, no good gossip. not much to say today. we had a great 4th though! shawn and i skipped the fireworks, we had both had enough for one day, but yogi took kris, kendyl & jackson and they had fun(but no pictures) on sat. the kids and i went up to my parents lake house, hardly took any pictures there either. i was too busy watching the kids. yogi worked on a roof and came up much later, so i was on my own mostly. my nice took my kids to the water for a while and i watched the ballgame with my dad for a it. so that was nice. well.. the ballgame didnt end so nice, but i cant talk about it, i get too angry LOL

today we are staying home, & getting poor shawn back on a decent sleep schedule, much to jackson's chagrin. he seems to think it's ok to call a friend(without permission, hiding in your room) and invite yourself to that friends house! um... NO. so he has been up in his room brooding, throwing things etc.. for a few hours now. OH WELL! you are not going to invite yourself over to a friend's house and the get a ride over there from me! try again, kid! it's not like this is all new to him and a teachable moment has presented itself, this happens over & over & over again, yet he thinks the rules may suddenly bend or change. not so. brood all you want. i can take it. i'm tough like that. i eat red meat. RAD kids do not often learn from past mistakes. they just make the same poor decisions over & over again. it is very frustrating, to say the least. control freaks do not "ask" their parents before inviting friends over or inviting themselves somewhere or making any other plans. they just do whatever they want & then get mad when it blows up in their face. ok.....choices, choices.

anyway, my stay, alone "in the ghetto" for 2 nights in georgia at dougs graduation is starting to sound like major vacation!!!!!!!!!

2 for 1 post

another "i am SO blogging this!" moment today. my truck needs to be registered. im a week overdue at this point, but my license expired june 10th and i cannot register with an expired license . so... FIRST i stood in line for 2 solid hours at the DMV today. GREAT BLOGGING MATERIAL! the guy behind me kept barking and trying to bite his own shoulder-no lie. he sucked at Simon Says too. i think he may have been in the wrong line! then there was the complainer group. whine whine whine.....sigh sigh sigh......

"why arent there seperate lines for people needing different things?"(because only 2 people work here. get over it.)

"why do i need to wait in line again if i only flunked the driving test last time? i passed the written!" (cuz you're DUMB! thats why! now hush!)

"why are there so many people here before a 3 day weekend anyway?"(same reason as you, doofus! PROCRASTINATION.)

"why aren't they giving out water?" (um.. why did you arrive without water?)

"can i go to McDonald's? will i lose my place in line?(move one TOE and your spot is mine. do not tempt me. i am a nursing mother and could get away with hitting you. ask any lawyer!)

they went on & on & on. SUCK IT UP! SHOW UP PREPARED INSTEAD OF WHINING TO US when you aren't! geesh.. but i kept my cool. hell, it was a day out in the sunshine for me! it was great only being responsible for myself for a few waking hours, especially since i had such bad insomnia last night! i led the Simon Says game, Archie won(old deaf guy. hhmm. i think he cheated.)and texted some friends. anyway, when i was finally finished and got my walking papers and ugly picture of myself, I ran to the door with a very Price Is Right, arms waving in the air, woot woot woot body action. i got my applause and left. no harm done. then i stood in line at the town hall, but only for a minute. my truck is almost registered(???) i guess because i went from leasing to owning i have to drive my 12 MPG truck 30 miles out to the boonies of wilton(can you say FARM TOWN???) to the police barracks/town hall there to have them fill something out..something about the one in my town not being "computerized" the right way. but it is in wilton??? i dont get it but i'm not doing it today! anyway, then i came home to clean up after my family and myself.

part 2 of the 2 for 1?

the picture above is an example of the kind of help i receive on a daily basis, hence the mess LOL

have a great holiday everybody!

sad :*(

still no letter from doug, after 2 solid weeks. he also hasn't called. waaaaa.
i am very likely going to doug's graduation in late august all by my lonesome, and taking my breasts with me. we have NO ONE, no support system whatsover, to take our children, especially the Non-Sleeper and the Meds Taker(Pill Popper?? LOL). kristin will keep kendyl, but will not take shawn, so why bother? and it just wont work for anyone else in our lives either.... so hubby will stay behind and I will go. AS USUAL. i am dissappointed, to say the least. i wish i had that Best Friend: the perky one who says "i'll take all your kids for the weekend!" like on john & kate Plus Eight LOL... but i do not. my best friend has her own 4 kids and a STRESSFUL full time job. my other best friend is childless, clueless and has a VERY STRESSFUL full time job. my other friends are not local, so the kids arent familiar enough with them. my parents are just not into it. not like that. never were. small doses. yogi's parents are uninterested(dad) and dead(mom-GOD bless her sweet soul) so... what's a Mom to do? hey, i've flown/traveled alone plenty of times. i completed both of our boys' adoptions alone(3 weeks for one, 12 days for the other, one in a foreign country), i funeraled alone in NC 12 mos. ago, i can do this alone too. but.... it would be so cool to meet up with a family we can trade some overnights with!
wow, what a boring post. sorry. maybe i'm gloomy. yogi is at meetings all night, i am alone alot lately. he only has 1 day off over the holiday weekend, it's roofing season. poo!

awesome info!

i stole this from another blogger LOL

Ten Ways to Support To A RAD Mom.


Reactive Attachment Disorder, RAD is one of those things other people don't really notice. The reactive part is usually seen and felt the most by the primary caregiver--or the mom in most cases. What a RAD Mom needs the most is support from others in ways you may have never thought of.
1. A RAD Mom needs help teaching her child with Reactive Attachment Disorder that mom's are in charge of taking good care of their children. And that their mom is a good mom who takes care of her children.
2. A RAD Mom needs friends who don't hug her RAD Child. The best way to help a family dealing with a child who has reactive attachment disorder is to help the child learn to get his or her hugs for mom and dad. The same is true for other intimate things the child might want to do, like sit on laps or give you a neck rub.
3. A RAD Mom needs friends who can support how we respond to our child. No matter what the situation looks like the parents need to be considered the ones in charge especially when it comes to discipline.
4. A RAD Mom needs people who have suggestions, ideas or criticism to talk to us privately when our child is not around. Triangulation is a natural behavior for children with Reactive Attachment Disorder and questioning the parents in front of the child empowers the child.
5. A RAD Mom needs friends who don't fall into the trap of hearing the child say, "I wish you were my mom, you are much better then the one I got." Children with Reactive Attachment Disorder often shop for new, improved and better parents.
6. A RAD Mom needs an occasional hour to take a shower or paint her toe nails. A great way to be supportive to someone who is parenting a child with Reactive Attachment Disorder is to offer her a break once in awhile. Even if it's just to come over and supervise the child while mom gets a break.
7. A RAD Mom needs time alone with a RAD Dad. Often one of the most important things parents of children with emotional or mental health disorders are told they need is respite. Families who adopt children from the foster care system often receive adoption subsidy funds for respite care. RAD parents need a regular break, but they also need a respite provider who can deal with the issues of a special needs child.
8. A RAD Mom needs friends who can remind her about why and how it came about that she is the mother of a child with Reactive Attachment Disorder. We need to be reminded that our child came to us this way and that the best we can do is love the child and provide them with the best we can.
9. A RAD Mom needs to be reminded that many children with Reactive Attachment Disorder heal and become healthy adults. We need to remember what the goals are with our children and like other parents we need to hope for the best.
10. Most of all a RAD Mom needs friends. Parenting a child with Reactive Attachment Disorder can be isolating and defeating. RAD mom's often withdraw and feel alone. The number one thing we need is a friend willing to listen and maybe have coffee now and then.

do i print it and mail it to the neighbor? LOL

NO SCHOOL!!!!!

they are having a blast. 2 peas in a pod, these two. kendyl is the first person i have ever seen him show genuine, true love to, and it was so wonderful to see. from the day she was born, it showed. she was so innocent and non threatening, he just instantly fell in love with her. he's really getting attached to shawn now, too. so we have hope for the future. anyway, ken is so happy that brubby doesn't have to go to school anymore!from july 8th to aug. 7th he has summer school(if you can even call it that, more like a 2 hour tutoring session, 3 days a week-budget cuts LOL) but atleast that's not all day. with the bus rides he'll be gone about 3 hours a day. kendyl will continue to go to school all summer, 9-1, tue & th. i hate to have her lose her spot. they are running around pretending to be super heroes, and jack is wearing one of those winter hat face masks. shawn is terrified! now he's singing a nursery rhyme.
nursery rhymes by jackson:
humpty dumpty sat on a wall
humpty dumpty had a big fall
all the kings and all the horses could not put him back together
so they dumped the dead humpty dumpty into the groundand that was it.
pretty basic huh? LOL

i just caught jackson eating chicken that's been sitting on the counter all night. UGH. will it ever sink in? oh, well...better than ABD gum(already been driven over)
"it tastes the same, mom!" he said, with an eye roll my way.
off to register my truck on the last legal day. the line aughtta be fun huh? my license expired too LOL. i need a babysitter for all this standing in line stuff!